I used to ask many Sisters and Brothers how they meditate and would practise that way, each one it would be meditating in their own way and it helped me a lot. I also used to ask some how they got into BK and their experiences with Baba, it was very interesting. On Sundays, I would be mostly at the art gallary (various concepts depicted there with the help of dolls and paintings) and I would explain them to visitors. Sometimes senior Sisters and Brothers from other centres used to visit ORC and conduct classes, thus I attended classes of Dadi Janki, Dadi Gulzar, Brother Brij Mohan Bhai, Sister Jayanti, Dadi Rukmini, Sister Chakradhari, Sister Shivani and some other senior Brother and Sisters. It was a beautiful learning phase.
I had friends among Sisters and I liked their company. One day I met a mother in 2007 who was living with her family but was a BK and got introduced to Baba in 2003. She came to ORC along with her centre students to attend a class. We became good friends, we exchanged phone numbers and I used to ask her a lot of doubts regarding Murli points, meditation, dharna and she used to help me. I told my parents to go to nearby center and learn meditation, they went. In February 2008, I took my parents to Madhuban for Baba Milan on occassion of Shiv Jayanti. I felt very happy that they liked Baba's knowledge.
In 2008 November, I asked another Sister who was living with her nephew if I could live with them [I am from Telangana and my parents lived in Nizamabad, for the sake of job I stayed in ladies' hostel in Gurgaon and wanted to live with a BK], she readily agreed. She is a senior mother who was in Gyan for about 15 years by then, so she was very accurate in dharnas. She would wake up at 3 am and do meditation. Though I was sleeping in a seperate room I would somehow wake up and meditate in my room.
There was no television in the house and she would not even put on audio songs. I asked her how she meditates and she said that she would just visualise Paramdham and her journey to Paramdham from earth via Subtle Region and meditate. So I also meditated that way, it felt very nice. I lived with her till 2009 March, i.e four months.
When my parents came to know that I was living with a BK they told me to shift to ladies hostel again, and when I did not shift, my mom came and shifted me to my previous hostel again and told me not to visit nearby BK centre. I would visit ORC less and nearby centre also less, but I would cook my own food and meditate regularly.
Then I left my job in Dec 2009 and returned to my home town to study for my higher studies. I was a mechanical engineer and wanted to pursue MBA in finance. One of my teachers at MBA entrance coaching told me to learn stock market since it would help me in my MBA entrance interview. I wanted to go abroad (USA) to pursue my MBA and my parents were not willing. So though I wrote GMAT in Jan 2011, I did not go for higher studies. Instead I did some international certification courses in stock trading in 2011 May and stayed at home. My parents shifted to Hyderabad in 2011 May and never allowed me to go to nearby centre. I used to read Avyakt Murlis online and some old Murlis whose soft copies I had. In June 2011, I came across this site and found lot of content about BK movement and I liked this. Before I left my job I told my parents I wanted to surrender to Baba and become a BK but my parents were very intent in not allowing me and denied me any access to them.
After I came across this site I felt very happy. I would also read another site,
http://www.brahmakumarisforum.net. I would also visit one PBK site. I was very curious about anything related to Baba and the BK movement and its offshoots.
I came across sirius website
http://www.sirius-eng.net/index.htm through this site and I am very thankful for that. I would read each dictation 3-4 times, and I would feel some sensations when I read them. In 2012 December, I applied for CFA exam but did not prepare well so did not write it. In 2013, I was idle employment wise but was active on spiritual front, I was learning a lot from sirius dictations. I would visit