Hi
Feeling much much better today. Went through a storm yesterday where I just cried and cried and cried. However, today there is calm after the storm and I feel so so relieved and a bit more at peace with myself.
This recovery process is such a roller coaster ride that I don't know if I am coming or going.
I would like to ask if anyone who may have been in a similar position to myself, in that they were children under the age of 10 who were practically brought up with the influence of the BK organisation and lived most of their adult life in it as well, how are you all coping?
Do you have any advice or suggestions that could help me on my journey? I think with me, I woke up so late in my life to what was going on and started therapy at such a late stage in life that it was only recently that I realised the impact that all of this has had on my life, my well-being, my personality, my stamina, my career, my relationships and the list goes on.
I think that the older you are, the much harder it is to deal with. I just keep asking myself, why did I not see it earlier? But I think that I was so so conditioned by the time I was a teenager that I couldn't even think for myself. I got stuck in that age of being a teenager. And right now, I am living my teenage life in an older body. Has anyone else had this experience? If so, how do you deal with this frustration aside from having professional therapy?
yours
Enlightened
Feeling much much better today. Went through a storm yesterday where I just cried and cried and cried. However, today there is calm after the storm and I feel so so relieved and a bit more at peace with myself.
This recovery process is such a roller coaster ride that I don't know if I am coming or going.
I would like to ask if anyone who may have been in a similar position to myself, in that they were children under the age of 10 who were practically brought up with the influence of the BK organisation and lived most of their adult life in it as well, how are you all coping?
Do you have any advice or suggestions that could help me on my journey? I think with me, I woke up so late in my life to what was going on and started therapy at such a late stage in life that it was only recently that I realised the impact that all of this has had on my life, my well-being, my personality, my stamina, my career, my relationships and the list goes on.
I think that the older you are, the much harder it is to deal with. I just keep asking myself, why did I not see it earlier? But I think that I was so so conditioned by the time I was a teenager that I couldn't even think for myself. I got stuck in that age of being a teenager. And right now, I am living my teenage life in an older body. Has anyone else had this experience? If so, how do you deal with this frustration aside from having professional therapy?
yours
Enlightened