Dear All,
I have received a private message asking if I am a moderator because of my thread on karma. I just had a look at that thread and there are comments about rumours that I do not exist, that somebody said in cult exit that I don't exist, and that the general feeling is that I am a moderator.
I can assure you I am a woman who recently left a BK centre after being involved for five years and I came on this forum for support. My self esteem is low enough at the moment, on the one hand I felt the BKs undermined me as an individual and gradually took away my identity, and yet on the other hand I feel lost without the meditation, the community, the positive values.
On this website I thought I had found a way to deal with this and I genuinely believed that I could say whatever I liked and be as open as I could - how refreshing it would be to be able to have the freedom not to be worried that I would be criticised for my views.
I come on this forum today having been away for a few days only to find these comments and to be directed to the cult exit forum where a whole topic in the main page is dedicated to revealing me as a hoax or in fact a 'sock puppet of the moderator'. On my karma thread on this forum I have been asked to identify myself. I would imagine that this rumour is probably from somebody trying to undermine this very site, and trust me, they have. I would feel very uncomfortable about expressing anything I feel on this forum again. To see my posts as anything other than heartfelt and sincere pleas for clarity, is to completely miss the point of what this forum is about - support, encouragement, freedom of expression, openess and informed help. I appreciate that the 'witch hunt' started on cult exit, but seems to have carried over to this site too, and members of this forum I notice have posted very angry comments about me on cult exit. I appear to have been investigated and one criticism is that I do not post from the place I say I am from? Do you know how much courage it took for me to actually come on one of these forums and speak out for the first time? Whoever started this rumour could have had the courage to contact me privately and resolve this rather than create what seems to be a modern form of the old Victorian feathering and tarring, on two major websites
I am not a moderator. I have not been planted on websites as some sort of spy and I do not waste my time pretending to be somebody I am not just for the sake of my amusement. It is one thing to start the rumour, but for those of you who added your venom, that was a bit foolish wasn't it? Maybe I should just deal with cult exit. It is just it was flagged up on my thread on karma on this forum that I am not a real person, and the debate on cult exit, in which members of this forum have taken part, is really a bit personal.
thanks and goodbye,
Sarah
I have received a private message asking if I am a moderator because of my thread on karma. I just had a look at that thread and there are comments about rumours that I do not exist, that somebody said in cult exit that I don't exist, and that the general feeling is that I am a moderator.
I can assure you I am a woman who recently left a BK centre after being involved for five years and I came on this forum for support. My self esteem is low enough at the moment, on the one hand I felt the BKs undermined me as an individual and gradually took away my identity, and yet on the other hand I feel lost without the meditation, the community, the positive values.
On this website I thought I had found a way to deal with this and I genuinely believed that I could say whatever I liked and be as open as I could - how refreshing it would be to be able to have the freedom not to be worried that I would be criticised for my views.
I come on this forum today having been away for a few days only to find these comments and to be directed to the cult exit forum where a whole topic in the main page is dedicated to revealing me as a hoax or in fact a 'sock puppet of the moderator'. On my karma thread on this forum I have been asked to identify myself. I would imagine that this rumour is probably from somebody trying to undermine this very site, and trust me, they have. I would feel very uncomfortable about expressing anything I feel on this forum again. To see my posts as anything other than heartfelt and sincere pleas for clarity, is to completely miss the point of what this forum is about - support, encouragement, freedom of expression, openess and informed help. I appreciate that the 'witch hunt' started on cult exit, but seems to have carried over to this site too, and members of this forum I notice have posted very angry comments about me on cult exit. I appear to have been investigated and one criticism is that I do not post from the place I say I am from? Do you know how much courage it took for me to actually come on one of these forums and speak out for the first time? Whoever started this rumour could have had the courage to contact me privately and resolve this rather than create what seems to be a modern form of the old Victorian feathering and tarring, on two major websites
I am not a moderator. I have not been planted on websites as some sort of spy and I do not waste my time pretending to be somebody I am not just for the sake of my amusement. It is one thing to start the rumour, but for those of you who added your venom, that was a bit foolish wasn't it? Maybe I should just deal with cult exit. It is just it was flagged up on my thread on karma on this forum that I am not a real person, and the debate on cult exit, in which members of this forum have taken part, is really a bit personal.
thanks and goodbye,
Sarah