Tanya wrote:I said 'alright' and stopped going to the Centre because I couldn't take her s**t anymore
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Hooray!
Good answer.
I only wish that you had told that to her yourself!!!
It's a typical trick, is not it. They won't let you meet the ghost until you have invested 6 months or a year following the principles day (the main exception being if you a rich and/or famous ... then you can run to the front of the queue!).
After you have invested so much time and energy, and probably money, can you admit that you felt nothing ... that there was no feeling? I've heard that from many ex-BKs. Some say they never felt anything ... they kept trying and might even have pretended they did during "sharing your experience" sessions but they said after they did not.
And what answer do the BKs have ... you are the problem and to fix it you must do more meditation and surrender to them further.
Although it is probably not consciously done, the BKs have just responded to their circumstances and develop a strategy to survive ... the anatomy of it all is very similar to a
"long" con trick in which you get someone to donate a little, and then a little more, and then even more and more constantly on the promise than soon they will receive multi-million fortune back.
Funnily enough - I don't know how it is now - but in the old days it used to be 1 year for an Indian but only 6 months for a White.
If you were White, you got privileges. You got to go to meet BapDada sooner, you got chairs to sit on, you got to sit at the front of the crowd. You might even get invited on the stage ... whereas the poor Indian were herded in like cattle to pens. They even have "security wing" with lathis (big sticks) in case they try and push their way to the front.
I find this discriminatory. And surely mainly about the financial value of Westerners?
I do not think it was not about the actual spiritual worth of the individual ... if you were the sweetest, old humble Indian man or lady you'll be stuck way at the back and only get to "meet" BapDada in groups.