You folks are very sweet and a tonic for the upheaval I am experiencing. I have never wanted more to end my life than right now, I hate writing this as I do not want sympathy, I hate it ... but I am scared. I nearly did it last night, I haven't done anything like that for a long time.
I really do need some friends, I am the true billy no mates
I go to the pub on my own I smoke spliff on my own ... after leaving Gyan (could be 4 maybe 5 years now) I have been unable to heal the wounds I gained there and also unable to reintegrate into any social situation ... I simply don't know what to do, it's awful
I am actually considering going to the gp to see if I can get some happy pills, something I've tried very hard not to do ...