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Om Shanti Sister Shivani,
please help me out, I am not able to get rid of my fear. I am into relationship with this guy from last 4 yrs. In between we were separated. He proposed another, he told me about this girl as I was not ready for marriage with him he told me that he likes some another girl but as the circumstances turned and the girl refused but even today they are friends and he is back to me (as I wanted him back).
I accepted him into my life. He never does anything without telling me, so now when I know he talks to that girl I am ensured. He has told me that he loves me very much but once I asked him what if that girl would have not rejected you would have been with her ? Answer he replied, "yes of course" and those words are not living my mind now, my mind has been creating lot of fear and such things which I know is not a truth.
I have joined Brahma Kumaris from last 1 year but I am not able to go there often ... few months back I was meditating into the (Brahma Kumaris) center and I saw something which I never saw and from that day I am not able to meditate properly. I am afraid to look inside me there are lot of things even related to my past childhood I was been abused physically and emotionally by my relatives. Today everything is fine between our family but I just cant forgive them because they just spoiled my life and I fear what if about my physical abuse somebody gets to know about that. As even my parents don't know what anything as they are working and in my childhood I use to stay with my auntie house.
Please help me, I have been looking for help . I cant talk into the center with those Sisters as my parents go there too.
Please help,
Om Shanti
please help me out, I am not able to get rid of my fear. I am into relationship with this guy from last 4 yrs. In between we were separated. He proposed another, he told me about this girl as I was not ready for marriage with him he told me that he likes some another girl but as the circumstances turned and the girl refused but even today they are friends and he is back to me (as I wanted him back).
I accepted him into my life. He never does anything without telling me, so now when I know he talks to that girl I am ensured. He has told me that he loves me very much but once I asked him what if that girl would have not rejected you would have been with her ? Answer he replied, "yes of course" and those words are not living my mind now, my mind has been creating lot of fear and such things which I know is not a truth.
I have joined Brahma Kumaris from last 1 year but I am not able to go there often ... few months back I was meditating into the (Brahma Kumaris) center and I saw something which I never saw and from that day I am not able to meditate properly. I am afraid to look inside me there are lot of things even related to my past childhood I was been abused physically and emotionally by my relatives. Today everything is fine between our family but I just cant forgive them because they just spoiled my life and I fear what if about my physical abuse somebody gets to know about that. As even my parents don't know what anything as they are working and in my childhood I use to stay with my auntie house.
Please help me, I have been looking for help . I cant talk into the center with those Sisters as my parents go there too.
Please help,
Om Shanti