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Dear Friends,
I have been reading the posts for past some time - there are very intriguing and, finally, I decided to write.
I was following BK life for 5 years and not following for last 5 years. So my balance of BK and non-BK belief is equal - I was waiting for a day when I will be able to evaluate this knowledge from unbiased view and, in my entire life, this is the time wherein I have a clearer view and start sharing with others.
Exiting BK life was not easy - its painful, I went through similar experiences that many of you have highlighted. I ask myself why did I even join BKs and would have been better off without getting this knowledge! But if I look at what I experienced in those 5 years of belief is simply far too more valuable for me in life than the pain experienced post that. Its a theroy of relativity- if you live your life on ordinary plane entirely- all will be fine. You will have some happiness and some sorrow. When you jump into something extra ordinary like BK life- the experiences of peace, divinity, happines are remarkable and out of this world. I doubt if anyone of us who have been a genuine BK did not have such experiences.
When you come back form an extra-ordinary plane into an ordinary plane, there is bound to be catastrophe and depression. Its hard but thats how it meant to be. I blamed BKs for my state of depression during those days like many of you do now. However in the BKs are some of the most beautiful and pure souls that are completely divine and their purity cant be questioned. Even when I blamed my situation to them, I contacted the BKs and explained my state of being. What did they do? They ran few nights of group meditation specifically for my welfare. I came out of depression in 5 days time of this experiment. What did science advise me to do? Doctors put me to sleeping pills which even destroyed me more.
It was a torturous state but from that time I never never blame BKs for my state of being. How can you put blame on anyone for your situations in life? Even if you have met 10-20 BKs, centre-in-charges who are not up-to-mark and may have conned you, how can you generalize it? If it doesnt work for you, leave it and do what you want to do but why do you blame their entire system? I have been to their centres across the world and many cities in India. I have never seen any other religion or spiritual practice having so many beatiful and pure spirits and positive vibrations.
We blame BKs for having money and property - I have seen many posts highlighting them. In my 5 years of BK life, I was never asked for any single donations by any BK centre across 5 countries, 20 cities in India though they offered me everything they had in many instances to sustain me. I ask you one simple thing- even if someone in BKs asks you for money, isnt it your choice whether you want to give or not? If you make that choice, why blame them? So I do not think they are doing it to accumulate money - if you think they are why do you even bother to give? I always admired their balance of science and spirituality. I met lot of simple BK centre-in-charges in remotes villages of India who had remarkable selflessness around them.
Failed predictions: Yes, this is true. I also believe their destruction philisophy is flawed and predictions have always failed. My view now is more rational - how does it matter to me when its going to happen! I do not want destruction to happen till I achieve what I have to! So yes their destrution mantra to lure people into the path is flawed. But mass destruction is a possibility in any case - in a recent earthquake in Haiti entire capital was destroyed. It can happen in my city tomorrow! So, that's destruction for me. I do not care when the world is destroyed. I care only about what I have to do before my own ... So, I took out this from their philosohy and evaluated the other concepts which are still profound and anwer many questions about life.
Is it God giving this knowledge or Dada Lekhraj? I do not know who is. Murlis become a bit heavy sometimes but to me they had profound truth in them hidden. It had something for everyone. Not interesting every line for every one ... but had something for everyone. My view now is that even if its Dada Lekhraj, I respect that spirit for having brought so much purity, happiness, peace to the souls who genuinely believed it. Meditation enabled me to connect to God.
Can a point of light bring loving tears to my eyes? Even after leaving BKs, I do experience God's presence everywhere in my life- I love him, he makes me cry, he helps me when I look upto him as a child, I still feel his vibrations when I meditate. If something is so false, how it can still bring such deep connection with God? One could argue that its not God I connect to - but do I care?
In that connection, I experience more love than I do from my own parents, wife ... I experience more peace than I do when I visit Church, temple or mosque. I experience more happiness than I do when I get promotions in career ... who could this be if not God? If its not God, I am fine with his presence till the time someone can tell me who God is and how to experience him. I would like to hear from your experiences whether any of you have had better experiences of God in any other path and I am happy to take that with you.
In my today's state, I am more matured, rational about it, and my relationship with God is more subtle and deep. I do not say I believe them 100%. I do not say what they are doing is all wrong. I do not say one needs to really prove they are wrong or right. In my view, if you like something accept it, if you do not, reject it. But do not generalize your experiences with few instances. Afterall they are also being run by imperfect human beings.
In the end, I only believe what I experience. If any of you had not experienced the magic of connection with God through their teachings, you would never have followed that path.
I have been reading the posts for past some time - there are very intriguing and, finally, I decided to write.
I was following BK life for 5 years and not following for last 5 years. So my balance of BK and non-BK belief is equal - I was waiting for a day when I will be able to evaluate this knowledge from unbiased view and, in my entire life, this is the time wherein I have a clearer view and start sharing with others.
Exiting BK life was not easy - its painful, I went through similar experiences that many of you have highlighted. I ask myself why did I even join BKs and would have been better off without getting this knowledge! But if I look at what I experienced in those 5 years of belief is simply far too more valuable for me in life than the pain experienced post that. Its a theroy of relativity- if you live your life on ordinary plane entirely- all will be fine. You will have some happiness and some sorrow. When you jump into something extra ordinary like BK life- the experiences of peace, divinity, happines are remarkable and out of this world. I doubt if anyone of us who have been a genuine BK did not have such experiences.
When you come back form an extra-ordinary plane into an ordinary plane, there is bound to be catastrophe and depression. Its hard but thats how it meant to be. I blamed BKs for my state of depression during those days like many of you do now. However in the BKs are some of the most beautiful and pure souls that are completely divine and their purity cant be questioned. Even when I blamed my situation to them, I contacted the BKs and explained my state of being. What did they do? They ran few nights of group meditation specifically for my welfare. I came out of depression in 5 days time of this experiment. What did science advise me to do? Doctors put me to sleeping pills which even destroyed me more.
It was a torturous state but from that time I never never blame BKs for my state of being. How can you put blame on anyone for your situations in life? Even if you have met 10-20 BKs, centre-in-charges who are not up-to-mark and may have conned you, how can you generalize it? If it doesnt work for you, leave it and do what you want to do but why do you blame their entire system? I have been to their centres across the world and many cities in India. I have never seen any other religion or spiritual practice having so many beatiful and pure spirits and positive vibrations.
We blame BKs for having money and property - I have seen many posts highlighting them. In my 5 years of BK life, I was never asked for any single donations by any BK centre across 5 countries, 20 cities in India though they offered me everything they had in many instances to sustain me. I ask you one simple thing- even if someone in BKs asks you for money, isnt it your choice whether you want to give or not? If you make that choice, why blame them? So I do not think they are doing it to accumulate money - if you think they are why do you even bother to give? I always admired their balance of science and spirituality. I met lot of simple BK centre-in-charges in remotes villages of India who had remarkable selflessness around them.
Failed predictions: Yes, this is true. I also believe their destruction philisophy is flawed and predictions have always failed. My view now is more rational - how does it matter to me when its going to happen! I do not want destruction to happen till I achieve what I have to! So yes their destrution mantra to lure people into the path is flawed. But mass destruction is a possibility in any case - in a recent earthquake in Haiti entire capital was destroyed. It can happen in my city tomorrow! So, that's destruction for me. I do not care when the world is destroyed. I care only about what I have to do before my own ... So, I took out this from their philosohy and evaluated the other concepts which are still profound and anwer many questions about life.
Is it God giving this knowledge or Dada Lekhraj? I do not know who is. Murlis become a bit heavy sometimes but to me they had profound truth in them hidden. It had something for everyone. Not interesting every line for every one ... but had something for everyone. My view now is that even if its Dada Lekhraj, I respect that spirit for having brought so much purity, happiness, peace to the souls who genuinely believed it. Meditation enabled me to connect to God.
Can a point of light bring loving tears to my eyes? Even after leaving BKs, I do experience God's presence everywhere in my life- I love him, he makes me cry, he helps me when I look upto him as a child, I still feel his vibrations when I meditate. If something is so false, how it can still bring such deep connection with God? One could argue that its not God I connect to - but do I care?
In that connection, I experience more love than I do from my own parents, wife ... I experience more peace than I do when I visit Church, temple or mosque. I experience more happiness than I do when I get promotions in career ... who could this be if not God? If its not God, I am fine with his presence till the time someone can tell me who God is and how to experience him. I would like to hear from your experiences whether any of you have had better experiences of God in any other path and I am happy to take that with you.
In my today's state, I am more matured, rational about it, and my relationship with God is more subtle and deep. I do not say I believe them 100%. I do not say what they are doing is all wrong. I do not say one needs to really prove they are wrong or right. In my view, if you like something accept it, if you do not, reject it. But do not generalize your experiences with few instances. Afterall they are also being run by imperfect human beings.
In the end, I only believe what I experience. If any of you had not experienced the magic of connection with God through their teachings, you would never have followed that path.