So here I am bidding G'day to no-one in particular from this little corner of cyberspace but alas my heart is a little heavy today. Why? Because if I look at my state of mind right now through those 'duty of care' lenses that some on the forum wish the BKWSU would decorate itself with, I can see that the very circumstances that I allow to constrain my posting on the site actually mitigate against ME taking full and personal responsibility for demonstrating that "duty of care". Consequently, I feel complicit in the organisation's machinations and this complicity is having a corrosive influence on my self-esteem. How long can it continue? I feel awful. How long can one be "on the way out" of the BKWSU or any such organisation? Is this another sort of "Honeymoon Period" to borrow a BKWSU phenomena explored elsewhere on the forum. Is there a exiters honeymoon?
I am chosing my words so very carefully, as though scared that the thought police will somehow detect my worldly identity from my choice of words, or sentence construction, or the unmistakable cadence of my language! I feel peculiarly exposed by my presence here, as if there is a self that I am not able to mask ... However I am waffling, so I will get back on topic.
All is not well in the BKWSU! Listen to Dadi Janki's classes carefully and you may be able to detect that. There are soul's that are in deep, deep personal anguish inside the organization. And how does the good old BKWSU Mothership respond? Well in one instance we see it closing ranks and choosing to preserve itself rather than see that that the individual gets the assistance so obviously needed - the good old corporation must survive at all costs! Capitalist ideology to the core and it stinks to high heaven's ... or should that be it reeks of hell?!
Maybe organisations such as the BKWSU will and do prefer to keep you onside - where you can be controlled so that any potential damage can be limited - rather than risk the chance that the world outside come to know the inside of their business. In this case the business is God's House! And inside, everyone will come to know your secrets. They have to know because you can not be given free rein to go contaminating the pure souls and trampling all over the Godly systems with your impurity now, can you? Oh no, we have to keep a our vigilant (soul conscious) eye on you. oh, and then there is your own guilt at having fouled on your own Godly fortune. Damn! Who helps with that psychological rupture?! Oh, just have more Yoga! You are gonna suffer like nobody knows for them there karmas of yours but that aint nothing to do with the Yagya to be sure. You still want to sit? Okay, sit.
Thing is though that you yourself know that it seems impossible that you will ever again be able to connect with that Shiva because no matter how much you fess-up you are reminded every day in the Murli that your actions show us all that you are just the degraded specimen that God has supposedly come to uplift. And notwithstanding all of that, you did what?! Oh by the way, the whole class is listening as well!
Organisations such as the BKWSU are NOT the universe - though they may conduct their business of indoctrination with that belief. Leading us to believe that NOTHING else matters outside their much vaunted doctrines and systems! An organisation that wants you to know only that which it wants you to know can be seen as a dispener and facilitator of humanity's descent into an awful and ultimately self-abusing state of ignorance - me thinks. That's politic's ain't it?
And so to all our 'fallen' BK comrades, whatever their condition, whatever their fortune, whatever their karma's, however they have fallen, please note that you ARE God's children.
Whilst writing this I was wondering how long it is gonna be before I am an ex-BK? Or should that be, how much courage is it gonna take me to be 'fess up to being an ex-BK? Maybe there is another way of looking at things: Perhaps I should stop thinking in terms of being an Ex-anything but instead be soul conscious in the 'best' way that I can.
Could such a state of being enable me to live a meaningful life without being in bondage to an organisation? Ah well, questions, questions all the time.
Vaya con Dios
I am chosing my words so very carefully, as though scared that the thought police will somehow detect my worldly identity from my choice of words, or sentence construction, or the unmistakable cadence of my language! I feel peculiarly exposed by my presence here, as if there is a self that I am not able to mask ... However I am waffling, so I will get back on topic.
All is not well in the BKWSU! Listen to Dadi Janki's classes carefully and you may be able to detect that. There are soul's that are in deep, deep personal anguish inside the organization. And how does the good old BKWSU Mothership respond? Well in one instance we see it closing ranks and choosing to preserve itself rather than see that that the individual gets the assistance so obviously needed - the good old corporation must survive at all costs! Capitalist ideology to the core and it stinks to high heaven's ... or should that be it reeks of hell?!
Maybe organisations such as the BKWSU will and do prefer to keep you onside - where you can be controlled so that any potential damage can be limited - rather than risk the chance that the world outside come to know the inside of their business. In this case the business is God's House! And inside, everyone will come to know your secrets. They have to know because you can not be given free rein to go contaminating the pure souls and trampling all over the Godly systems with your impurity now, can you? Oh no, we have to keep a our vigilant (soul conscious) eye on you. oh, and then there is your own guilt at having fouled on your own Godly fortune. Damn! Who helps with that psychological rupture?! Oh, just have more Yoga! You are gonna suffer like nobody knows for them there karmas of yours but that aint nothing to do with the Yagya to be sure. You still want to sit? Okay, sit.
Thing is though that you yourself know that it seems impossible that you will ever again be able to connect with that Shiva because no matter how much you fess-up you are reminded every day in the Murli that your actions show us all that you are just the degraded specimen that God has supposedly come to uplift. And notwithstanding all of that, you did what?! Oh by the way, the whole class is listening as well!
Organisations such as the BKWSU are NOT the universe - though they may conduct their business of indoctrination with that belief. Leading us to believe that NOTHING else matters outside their much vaunted doctrines and systems! An organisation that wants you to know only that which it wants you to know can be seen as a dispener and facilitator of humanity's descent into an awful and ultimately self-abusing state of ignorance - me thinks. That's politic's ain't it?
And so to all our 'fallen' BK comrades, whatever their condition, whatever their fortune, whatever their karma's, however they have fallen, please note that you ARE God's children.
Whilst writing this I was wondering how long it is gonna be before I am an ex-BK? Or should that be, how much courage is it gonna take me to be 'fess up to being an ex-BK? Maybe there is another way of looking at things: Perhaps I should stop thinking in terms of being an Ex-anything but instead be soul conscious in the 'best' way that I can.
Could such a state of being enable me to live a meaningful life without being in bondage to an organisation? Ah well, questions, questions all the time.
Vaya con Dios