Dear Andrey, an interesting post.
I will make this very, very clear ... I did not desert him. I was prepared to stand by him. I was the one who stood by my commitment. If you read my past posts carefully, you will see.
He, NOT ME, is the one who leaves the family path. Why? Because his feelings for me are so strong that he cannot be around me and live a PURE life! I have not forced myself upon him nor used EVIL ways to seduce him. Do not put the responsibility on this upon my shoulders. It is HE and his persual of the BK doctrine to the extent he will leave and deceive those who have done nothing but support and love him ... IT IS HE who has worked so thoroughly on detaching and stop loving his family just as instructed to do.
There are worse men than him in the world. But you explain to me given your ????? rationale how I am at fault and love those on this forum more than i do him, how according to him I was the perfect wife, was not lacking in anyway, everything he could want in a woman, and his love for me was strong ... BUT he admits - and TAKE NOTICE as I told him 6 months ago from the good honest loving people on this forum - that BK life and family life were 100% incompatible.
He told me then how wrong I was ... NOW he tells me that the two cannot co exist.
Do not treat me in a condescending arrogant manner, as though an IQ of 130 means stupidity. Arrogance is ignorance. How dare you presume to be my superior, to judge me and my actions; tell me how to live my life and that I am unethical or immoral. Take a closer look at what is happening if you can take your BK blinkers off. But i will tell you one thing ... the people who have helped me here, they have shown me more commitment and integrity than my so called husband has for 12 months. They obviously have more spiritual knowledge and genuine love than you are aware of or, in your altered state, capable of recognizing.
You dare infer that I betray my ex with preference to this forum? He admits he betrayed me. Go re-read what has been written. And this time read it not see just want you want, so you can justify your sick thinking.
Where do you get off telling me to obey my husband??? Do you think I am a brainless imbecile who is prepared to subjugate myself and my children to a psychotic idiot? Why would I do that? And what world do you belong where women are subordinate to men? I married a PARTNER, I do not want to be a child in a relationship nor do I want to look after and run after a 46 year old child who is unable to take any responsibility. I have a moral obligation to protect and look after my children. I will not sacrifice them for some distorted promise of some Golden Age that comes if you do all the wrong things to fellow man now. I would have to be insane to accept such conditions, and may i suggest your 'logical' thinking is severely warped.
And you got it right, the BKSWU is one of the biggest evils. It is not god channeled, I will speak my mind here. The amount of suffering and horrendous evils that have been committed under this flag are just starting to be exposed. How dare you tell me that God has ordained that human beings can go around destroying families, turning their backs on child abuse, abortion, deceit, money profiting and says, "go for it, that is all OK, that is how you lead a pure life?". Get with the program Andrey, get real.
This life is not a dress rehearsal. We are accountable, not your karma, the biggest excuse for inexcusable behaviour i have ever heard. There is nothing more important than what we do now and our motives. To act in such an disgusting totally selfish, self-serving manner because you are told your going to be a deity in a Golden Age has nothing to do with love. It is pure self-centeredness at everyone else's cost.
So you believe if my EX starts shooting heroin then I should follow??? I don't know what country you hail from but hate to tell you, they stopped burning witches at the stake a few centuries ago.
He was lucky he only got coffee, and i did not throw it on him. He just happened to be in the way of the sink
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. Any one else would have decked him with a lump of 4 by 2. (for those not from OZ, that is a bloody big lump of wood).
The blame, sorry RESPONSIBILITY of his actions is first and foremost his, NOT MINE, under the very careful guidance of the BKs ... Get a grip.
No, not everyone is bad and evil in the system, but how many of those very, very knowledgable and experienced teachers who post here are now having to deal with the repercussions of having brought in newbies with results like this all with the thought they were doing the right thing? Now they find out they were not. What sort of impact do you think this has on a person? Their heart was in the right place, just naive and innocent. And they were misled by who? Why the greatest 'souls' in the world. Now tell me again how it is God speaking? The path to hell is paved with good intentions.
Now, if the original teachings and system was genuine, then those in charge had a full responsibility to control the fast expansion and monitor what was happening, not just raking in the souls and the money.
There may be a bright side to the coin, but if it is only blackened lead underneath the shiny coating it is only of token value. Nothing permanent. It is not what it seems, not what it presents itself as; and is a falsity, counterfeit. I am not interested in shiny exteriors, give me a tarnished finish any day. If it is pure gold underneath, then it only needs a polish.
Stop the lies Andrey, I did not push him away. I did everything for family survival. The BKs killed my family, that at their total disregard for ethics and morals. I got news for you. You are not special. You are not better than lokiks. Just a lot more stupid and arrogant. I am not afraid of knowing myself. I am a damned decent person; honest and I can hold my head up.
I AM NOT ASHAMED OF WHO I AM UNLIKE THOSE WHO SPEND THEIR WHOLE LIVES HIDING FROM THEMSELVES AND WHAT THEY FEEL. I HOLD MY HEAD WITH HUMBLE PRIDE NOT ARROGANCE AND THE BELIEF I AM BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE. You tell me if you know what honesty is, what is the more spiritual of these two, and which shows true unconditional love and acceptance?
Advice from strangers? Cult specialists in 2 major cities, doctors, specialists and the very, very experienced knowledgeable people on this forum that do not have ulterior motives, unlike the BK regime. The only stranger in my life is my ex and that is his choice. All of his choice. Nothing to do with me. He says HE does not want a relationship. It wouldn't matter who it was. IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME. It would be the same with anyone. Turn your BK mind control conditioning off, you might see the TRUTH, not the BK B**S**t you are told and want to believe cause life is just too difficult for you to face.
Bloody hide. Stick that in your pipe and smoke it. If you do not like what i have written, don't set yourself up to be judge, jury and executioner on my values and personal integrity and insult me to such an extent. Nor do I have to defend myself to you, but I will for clarification and truth. My tolerance level for idiocy is at an all time low. What a ******. Only reply if you want to talk reality. I am not interested in fairy tales.
THE TRUTH HAS A FUNNY KNACK OF EVENTUALLY ALWAYS LETTING ITSELF KNOWN.
So all of you out there that espouse to knowing absolute truth, guess what? You are in for a big, big surprise and, like it or lump it, the truth is now letting itself be known; and one of the ways is via this forum.