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- Joined: 05 Jun 2014
In the end, I left BK.
I had joined this clan for 6 years. At the end, I left. Am I really not confident? Have I really no fortune? Am I really not happy ...?
After 2012 (the Destruction did not happen), I questioned myself, "Am I staying with BK Clan to wait for death?".
Before 2012, I spent my time to learn Raj Yoga, spent time for service, donation. What the Senior Sister told me, the more you spent, the more will return. At that time, I hoped I will not become maid and servant in Golden Age. Therefore, I was really enthusiast to spend my time with the BK family. Unfortunately, my family and friend were really disappointed, upset and full of question on me because I changed my lifestyle. I am really feeling sorry to my family, friends and whoever gave me a lot of concerned.
Came to the year 2013, I visited the centre once a month. Current year 2014, I avoid BK member. I totally stopped visiting the BK centre. There was one time I met a Sister in the bus, we had conversations in centre before. We recognised each other. Previously we always got chit chatting. But right now, I had not attend class for about 3-4 months, and she treated me like stranger. She saw me but walked away. I looked at her, I think no matter how nice you treat them, once you stop to attend class and service, nobody will appreciated.
Non-stop personal problem happened.
The problem 1- My health, I really feel my body is weak because of the must have strictly vegetarian lifestyle. My neck pain, my bone pain, sometime teeth bleeding, I am always sleepy ... I went to see TCM 2 to 3 times a month (S$150/treatment). I buy many supplement but the issue is not solved. In the end, I changed my mind, and gave up vegetarian. Now, I chose to have food balance in life. Right now, everything, so far so good.
The Problem 2 - I did not accepted the food which was served by my Mom. I was upset and scolded her. I really feel sorry to my mum. Even the bad matters happened on my mum; I did not give any help and concerned to her. What the Senior Sister told me was to become a "detached observer", whatever happened was good, and all this was karma and drama.
At the end, things happened more badly. My mum lost money, and fell sick.
The Problem 3 - My career, I gave up my study. I worked as office clerk and got my low salary. Income just able covered expenses (amount included donation, which was major amount of my expenses). What senior told me, Destruction not so far, no point works so hard, no value when 2012 Destruction come. Just simply concentrate in Raj Yoga and sacrifice yourself to Baba and centre. At least try to be hard right now, you won’t be low class be maid and servant in Golden Age.
All that I complain about, when you guys read it, you must be clear about your life target, not to be silly as me, follow the stupid instructions till you drop in the drain.
I had joined this clan for 6 years. At the end, I left. Am I really not confident? Have I really no fortune? Am I really not happy ...?
After 2012 (the Destruction did not happen), I questioned myself, "Am I staying with BK Clan to wait for death?".
Before 2012, I spent my time to learn Raj Yoga, spent time for service, donation. What the Senior Sister told me, the more you spent, the more will return. At that time, I hoped I will not become maid and servant in Golden Age. Therefore, I was really enthusiast to spend my time with the BK family. Unfortunately, my family and friend were really disappointed, upset and full of question on me because I changed my lifestyle. I am really feeling sorry to my family, friends and whoever gave me a lot of concerned.
Came to the year 2013, I visited the centre once a month. Current year 2014, I avoid BK member. I totally stopped visiting the BK centre. There was one time I met a Sister in the bus, we had conversations in centre before. We recognised each other. Previously we always got chit chatting. But right now, I had not attend class for about 3-4 months, and she treated me like stranger. She saw me but walked away. I looked at her, I think no matter how nice you treat them, once you stop to attend class and service, nobody will appreciated.
Non-stop personal problem happened.
The problem 1- My health, I really feel my body is weak because of the must have strictly vegetarian lifestyle. My neck pain, my bone pain, sometime teeth bleeding, I am always sleepy ... I went to see TCM 2 to 3 times a month (S$150/treatment). I buy many supplement but the issue is not solved. In the end, I changed my mind, and gave up vegetarian. Now, I chose to have food balance in life. Right now, everything, so far so good.
The Problem 2 - I did not accepted the food which was served by my Mom. I was upset and scolded her. I really feel sorry to my mum. Even the bad matters happened on my mum; I did not give any help and concerned to her. What the Senior Sister told me was to become a "detached observer", whatever happened was good, and all this was karma and drama.
At the end, things happened more badly. My mum lost money, and fell sick.
The Problem 3 - My career, I gave up my study. I worked as office clerk and got my low salary. Income just able covered expenses (amount included donation, which was major amount of my expenses). What senior told me, Destruction not so far, no point works so hard, no value when 2012 Destruction come. Just simply concentrate in Raj Yoga and sacrifice yourself to Baba and centre. At least try to be hard right now, you won’t be low class be maid and servant in Golden Age.
All that I complain about, when you guys read it, you must be clear about your life target, not to be silly as me, follow the stupid instructions till you drop in the drain.