Chandaneeben wrote:I believe in myself, and focus on the stomach chakra as ''he'' won't let me be soul conscious or I hear threats.
It is a good effort & I appreciate the courage you have shown & the self belief that have regained.
Do it under some guidance. You are starting from wrong point. Chakra meditation comes later. Or it can cause indigestion & other related problems.
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They will have to give the solution for all problems they have created.
Chandaneeben, do you have a Yoga center of B.K.S.Iyengar near your residence or even in your city? He can solve this mystery within 5 minutes. One has to wait for 1 to 2 years to meet him owing to long list of mediation practitioners but he considers serious cases like yours first & can alter his schedule. He is a real hope for you because the mental trauma that you have been through for a long time can not be removed just by talking.