Audacity wrote:I became a BK as a teenager and left at about age 21. I guess when I left I thought I would just try to get on with a normal life and put the BK experience behind me - go to college, get a job, meet new people etc, and that time would heal ...
However, it did not happen and I am kind of embarrassed to say that 25 years have passed and, if I am totally honest about it, I still feel that I cannot comfortably touch people, have friends, or eat normal food etc. I have been suffering alone in silence for 25 years, wondering why my life still seems to be constantly full of serious "bad luck", mental/emotional/physical pain & illness, and an inability to have happy relationships or make long term plans - despite years of therapy, positive thinking, good education and healthy living?
I discovered this site about a month ago, and the "penny finally dropped". I had no idea that so many ex-BKs existed and that the "programming" ran so deep, or that the BKWSU was, in fact, widely recognised as a destructive religious cult. I am amazed at how similar a lot of the ex-BKs stories are to my own. I am just so grateful to the people who started up this site and to ex-BKs who have been brave and kind enough to share their stories. At last I can know that I am not some kind of intrinsically defective person, but that my mind was programmed during my vulnerable teenage years with a lot of very insidious and destructive thought patterns, especially about what would happen to me if I dared to leave the cult.
Now, I hope that by talking about the BK experience and facing the lingering programming I can finally take back my life. It's never too late. I found a very helpful series of videos by an American therapist who specialises in post-cult recovery:
Best wishes to you all.
Listen my love, Audacity,
Get a life, kick it off. These dimwits cannot be so-o clever as to brainwash you so-o drastically.
Get up and get on with it; join a gym, get a personal trainer, go for walks and smell the roses. Believe me, it is as simple as that.
The reason I am here is because I love the mother of my children and want her to see the other side of BK. I don't give a toss to these ''dumb #icthes that cannot save a drowning ship',' or for that matter sail a perfect one.
If they end up separating the mother of children from us, you will see Shivani and et al on Hugh Hefners channel. For every penny I have, by name of the lord I believe in ...
God bless you.
All the best.
I am different and sound brash, because I am a son of the earth. I worked my way and live a honest living. I will go to any lengths to protect the flock ...