01 Jul 2006
Thank you Arjun Bhai for clarifying this rather difficult topic.
I would like as a foreigner to share my point of view. I used to be in one of the most attactive setting as a BK, in a sort of princess castle. And even if I had to face some difficulties with some rather strong souls, there was this real feeling of family, with so much facilities, celebrations, very nice food, so many sweet Brothers and Sisters to interact with. The only thing is, without realising it, I really felt oppressed with the lack of simplicity, meaning I suppose a very strong hierachical order, and a lot of ego I could witness but did not want to admit it was there, or that it was wrong.
When I went to Kampil to do the bhatti, I had to sleep on the floor (cement one, with a few millimeters of foam layer). We had lunch twice a day, eating on the floor, and we had to sit hours and hours to go through the course and have some points translated from the Murli. We had the first meditation at two o'clock, and we would be more or less sitting with something like an hour break, until 8. My first reaction when I arrived is that I would not be able to cope because of my back problems.
But this is a magical place, and when I now remember it, for me there is just this vision of it beeing in the anteroom of paradise... Nothing was difficult, we were just absorbed in knowledge. The food was like...soft, delicious, simple, but full of good vibration, the water from the well was like silk. the Sisters were so natural, and so respectful. I needed to come a second time (or at the end of the first stay) to realise who the coordinator of Kampil was, because she was behaving so much like the others, no hierarchy, the only reference being Baba (in Virendra Dev Dixit of course), for any tiny decision.
I did not meet many Brothers because we were totally separated. Being seeds, soul conscious does not mean we are better, and we are like the BKs, a bunch of weirdoes, in a different way. I guess the major difference is the recognition of ShivBaba, meaning God in his different roles (the Trimurti) and in the Chariot now. When Virendra Dev Dixit started to churn deeply The Knowledge in 69-76, he also said to the Sisters in charge and the souls around, look what you are doing is not right, you have put images of Baba (Lekhraj Kirpalani) when it is said in the Murli not to put images, you are doing this and that etc.
Of course, they were not delighted with him, and they ended up chucking him out (like they have done for me, but I was treated in a much better way than he was!). What did make me recognise him immediately? I am not entirely sure, but I know that as a BK I always saw Dada Lekhraj as an instrument, with Shiv on his forehead having the commands and the power. What also delighted me is when I saw Baba (in Virendra Dev Dixit) for the first time. We were putting our saris on, and we just saw him looking at us with a big grin at the door. With his hat and his small size, he looked for me like a pixie, a magical apparition.
When he took his hat off his hair was all over the place, but he could not bother less. That was the way I see him, how God has to be among us, so simple, like a Father, like a friend. He is always smiling, has a good sense of humor, has a lot of tenderness, doesn't interfere with our drama, he can only give us clues, non intrusive, this is why his answers are not always straight forwards. He plays his role in the drama.
I think soul consciousness is that ultimately, stripping ourselves from all that is not necessary any more. In the course about The Kalpa, Christian sanskars is also the "pomp and show". I know I am born in a Western country and I have to clean myself from it. This is very subtle including, I guess, in my way of churning knowledge/ Not "I guess" but "actually", surely it is.
The seed souls (PBK) also represents the different religions, like the root souls (BK). We have different roles, all important. What I like as a seed, is that I know where I am going and what I need to do to get rid of my Christian sanskars, maybe Buddhist sanskars, Sanyasi....? I am focused, where as a BK, I made enormous progress without a doubt, but I was floating.