29 May 2006
Yes Brother, it’s a situation, I’m happy with. I like putting myself in those, because of the challenge. At least I have to choose between two, not many, so the correct choice probability rises to 50%. And here I give up. I’m not that powerful to take such a big decision. So I hope I won’t have to.
I should use defense if there is an offence, so I speak out of other motive. The more the opposition the more one sets to a position.
Loneliness is to be alone. How many does one need to not be alone. Not a class to speak over. Just one he needs, but who out of the two?
I don’t accept Gyan as scriptures. It makes me feel good. It helps me manage my life. I use it for my own benefit. Yes it is about a mental domination, but can this be the aim…what a world will be then, to have all under your control, no, Brother we should all rise up as equals, our aim is to control ourselves, not others, to not see ones own weaknesses, ones anothers weaknesses, not that we should see them and point them out to others, but we should avoid looking at them and hiding them for the other one. Like when we see something ugly why should we keep looking at it. We turn our head away.
Yes feelings matter, but we can change feelings and we can direct feelings. We are stronger and more powerfull and masters of our feelings. At least we should be. And yes sometimes it happens situations. Like for instance, did I ever looked for God? Did I ever though I would find one? Never, ever I was having such high aspirations. But sometimes practically it happens in a many, many times more special way.
Yes here I have no BK near, PBK near, no center, but it helps me not having the so discriminating attitude of BK, PBK, noBK. And it helps me concentrating on the spiritual connection. One becomes subservient to seniours if one has done something wrong to them. One should not be so dependant, nor so independent that he does not mind others at all. Yes, one should think for onself, because after all it is ones own life. Everything returns back to you. If someone tells you to do something and you do, he may be responsible, but you may be hurt. Let’s take the example with the jump out of the window.
I cannot find a Murli point that says this, it’s an overall impression. I can look for one. But do you believe in it? And whose Murli it is? Brahma Baba’s Murli? Whas it him that spoke. Or speeches of the seniours. Do we have to be so dependant on what other peoples say. We should also think ourselves for ourselves, for our own benefit. Baba says the soul itself is its own friend and own enemy. Yes I quote because I like. And it makes one think about it. It should not be that we have the attitude – OK stop it. Why should we stop others from doing things, or telling them what to do?
Yes, I need, as probably everyone does to justify ones own deeds. Should we act under complete fear and depression that everything we do is wrong. We sometimes make mistakes, sometimes not. It is rather we should think whatever we do is right. Out of love for oneself we should think like this. Like when someone makes mistake we forget and forgive.
And where is there happiness. Happiness is there in the soul. Baba says to go to heaven means to go into the self, soul. The Knowledge itself gives happiness. We receive it from him. Happiness is not there in the body. Happiness is in the soul that experiences. And there is supersensual happiness. Knowledge itself gives happiness.
What does it mean to leave Gyan, leave Baba?
I was thinking of the saying about the first love, that never disappears completely. The Confluence Age is itself the beginning. These relationships starts now and lasts a long time. Baba comes and teaches love, comes and teaches the teach to make vikarma akarma. Not a bondage, but to make oneself free from bondage. And this whole knowledge is just a recognition to the one it is an introduction. It is matter of 1 sec.
Yes, the forum is a good opportunity to share, Yes I don’t have that close minded souls around. I share because I think others would like to hear. And what it is that I speak. My own personal problems or whatever occupies my mind and it is all about that whatever I am I’ve become due to the influence of one. So I share that. Yes, Baba is here he gives new special knowledge, and if I have to loose that it’s a big loss. But if one has to live under tread of loss and separation, there has never been a true meeting, isn’t it. Good things are kept in the heart and they help heal the wounds from the past. It is not that bad feelings will dominate. No. Why? Love is the original form of the soul that now appears again. It’s a practical knowledge. One can even make money out of it. Phisical money are for the physical body’s survival. The money of the soul’s survival is love. Yaad is called love. We can love one the more we are detached. Detached means not attached to anyone. Free.