This guy I found on YouTube last year and I believe he is one of the most sincere practitioners of tantra who you will find online. He never pretends to be a guru, just a practitioner. To him things are real and it's his experiences that make them real for him not some intellectual gymnastics. There are 5-6 podcasts on this particular channel which I am sharing which may or may not make sense to you, depending on your outlook but even if you listen from the perspective of coming out of your comfort zone and gathering information/insight on this topic, you may find it interesting. Just be patient ... it can be a bit too much for some people but I learned a lot from his podcasts about these things than I could by reading tens of books. There are a few in Hindi too but will share them later if anyone demands it.
Knowledge like this may not make sense to some but will help you recover from BK conditioning/brainwashing. Just trust me on this. You will find a lot of podcasts like this on youtube but be careful. The people who really know about this stuff don't usually reveal themselves on social media and most of them who do are, to say it politely, "not very genuine". BTW, I have never practiced tantra in my life but have been a 'victim of it'. After leaving BK I had completely lost all hope of finding my faith again as everything seemed broken inside and outside and if anyone feels the same, knowledge like this will help them get a better grip of reality.
https://youtu.be/nFDSxMMsJYU
https://youtu.be/ladKMQVSL8s
https://youtu.be/BGv1VF8Mngk
https://youtu.be/kMlwTUMT3Uc
Knowledge like this may not make sense to some but will help you recover from BK conditioning/brainwashing. Just trust me on this. You will find a lot of podcasts like this on youtube but be careful. The people who really know about this stuff don't usually reveal themselves on social media and most of them who do are, to say it politely, "not very genuine". BTW, I have never practiced tantra in my life but have been a 'victim of it'. After leaving BK I had completely lost all hope of finding my faith again as everything seemed broken inside and outside and if anyone feels the same, knowledge like this will help them get a better grip of reality.
https://youtu.be/nFDSxMMsJYU
https://youtu.be/ladKMQVSL8s
https://youtu.be/BGv1VF8Mngk
https://youtu.be/kMlwTUMT3Uc