Mr Green wrote:i have given up on therapy now, I am poor and can only get what the NHS can offer.
Mr Green
I, too, am not rich, however, if you really look around, you can do many things for free or low cost to help you on your journey of recovery ... that is the only way I have managed to survive so far. If you are lucky, you might even find a good therapist under the NHS ... then what you can do, is ask them to read the link I sent regarding working with cult survivors for them to try and understand what you have been through.
The other thing is doing some creative pursuits ... there are many free creative pursuits available. In the UK, you just have to dig deep to find them.
Also, there are recovery colleges for mental health around the UK. If you are in London, there are recovery colleges in Central London and South West London where they run lots of free courses to help deal with the symptoms of your experiences ... I am not suggesting that you suffer from mental health issues, however, cults survivors often suffer from some kind of side effects of depression or breakdown and so, these places can be a very supportive environment to regain hope in one's life, take control of one's life again and find opportunities to move on in one's life.
Then there are other pursuits such as gardening, bird watching etc which may help us to ground ourselves again and connect us back to mother nature. Again, these activities can be done for free in some places.
Then there are meet up groups around the UK and other parts of the world. Many of them are free such as laughter Yoga or anything that tickles your fancy ...
From my personal experience, I feel that recovery requires more than just therapy.
I hope that this helps in some way...
Unfortunately, we are left responsible for taking control of our own recovery. No matter how much we point our fingers to the Brahma Kumaris or anyone else in our lives, we have to find a way of surviving and moving forward. It's important that we give a bit of energy and effort to our own recovery because this effort will eventually pay off ... It might take years and years but never give up!!! We deseve some real peace, love and happiness in our lives too!!
Take care
regards
Enlightened