Look, firstly I just want to say I am really dealing with the not so intellectual basics here. I just wish there was a section on this forum called, "BK beginners guide" or a section called, "Idiots guide to the BKs" because I know this is really very basic, but ...
Could there be an alternative to karma? Is karma so negative, so punishing?
I sat on a bench in the woods today. I was surrounded by trees and birdsong and I watched my dog running around happily, chewing a stick ... It was so beautiful, and yet tainted with a horrible cloud hanging over my head, a horrible feeling that I just was not giving enough, that I was simply not using this birth to its potential, that I was not serving or meditating enough. In spite of the beauty, there was a horrible feeling that I was wasting this birth.
Is there a positive alternative to karma? Could it just be that we are all a bunch of souls, doing the best we can with the tools we have been given at the present moment. Could it be that our upbringing, and our parents have nothing to do with any past behaviour? Could it be that we are, at this particular birth, fresh and innocent and we are simply making the best we can of what we have and that there is not sense of punishment and that it is all going to work out o.k in the end?
Alas, it is Friday night. A night when most people in England are probably drinking too much and watching dvds. I just wonder if I am the only one sitting here in Devon, pondering the question that as I am having a rubbish time, is it because I am a rubbish person and have been really awful to people in all my births? How on earth am i supposed to reconcile myself to the fact that for the next 5000 years I have to deal with that?
Sarah xx
- this whole karma issue, I know it is not limited to the BKs, but it kind of affects my every wakening hour.
Could there be an alternative to karma? Is karma so negative, so punishing?
I sat on a bench in the woods today. I was surrounded by trees and birdsong and I watched my dog running around happily, chewing a stick ... It was so beautiful, and yet tainted with a horrible cloud hanging over my head, a horrible feeling that I just was not giving enough, that I was simply not using this birth to its potential, that I was not serving or meditating enough. In spite of the beauty, there was a horrible feeling that I was wasting this birth.
Is there a positive alternative to karma? Could it just be that we are all a bunch of souls, doing the best we can with the tools we have been given at the present moment. Could it be that our upbringing, and our parents have nothing to do with any past behaviour? Could it be that we are, at this particular birth, fresh and innocent and we are simply making the best we can of what we have and that there is not sense of punishment and that it is all going to work out o.k in the end?
Alas, it is Friday night. A night when most people in England are probably drinking too much and watching dvds. I just wonder if I am the only one sitting here in Devon, pondering the question that as I am having a rubbish time, is it because I am a rubbish person and have been really awful to people in all my births? How on earth am i supposed to reconcile myself to the fact that for the next 5000 years I have to deal with that?
Sarah xx